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Once the golden boy of the English literary scene, now a clinically depressed writer of pulp crime fiction, Ash Winters has given up on hope, happiness, and—most of all—himself. He lives his life between the cycles of his illness, haunted by the ghosts of other people's expectations. Then a chance encounter throws him into the path of Essex-born Darian Taylor. By his own admission, Darian isn't the crispest lettuce in the fridge, but he makes Ash laugh, reminding him of what it's like to step beyond the boundaries of anxiety. But Ash has been living in his own shadow for so long that he can't see past the glitter to the light. Can a man who doesn't trust himself ever trust in happiness? And how can a man who doesn't believe in happiness ever fight for his own?
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    • AudioFile Magazine
      Once again, Nicholas Boulton proves he's the master of the romance genre with this moving story. Ash Winters is fighting crippling depression and anxiety, and swiftly losing hope. The last thing he wants is to fall for a dramatic stranger with a fake tan and a sparkly jacket. But the longer he spends with Darian Taylor, the more he wonders if this fearless young man is precisely what he needs. Boulton smoothly switches accents and characters, perfectly capturing every nuance and quirk of Ash's and Darian's characters with pitch-perfect accuracy. His performance pulls listeners right into this fraught, fiery relationship, transforming every pitfall, heartbreak, revelation, and reconciliation into something utterly captivating. B.E.K. Winner of AudioFile Earphones Award © AudioFile 2016, Portland, Maine
    • Publisher's Weekly

      July 15, 2013
      Pseudointellectualism meets gay romance in Hall’s debut. Self-absorbed British writer Ash Winters is a young man struggling with bipolar disorder and the aftermath of a suicide attempt. His perceptions of himself and others evolve quickly as he develops a relationship with fashion model Darian Taylor. Under Darian’s influence, the former hermit slowly returns to a more social state. The stock romance is enlivened with the occasional bits of dark humor and beautifully risqué moments, interspersed with an overabundance of mental illness details. The juxtaposition of unlikable Ash’s literary and intellectual viewpoints with Darian’s superficial lifestyle (and painfully rendered Essex accent: “You’ll do ahwight, janarwhatamean?”) is cleverly used to spotlight the propagation of relationship stereotypes, but the unlikely and unexpectedly charming pairing of Darian and Ash, and the resultant drama of their worlds colliding, eclipses development of other characters—leaving them mere set decoration to prop up the two leads.

    • Publisher's Weekly

      September 12, 2022
      There is a lot to be titillated by in this delightful gay romance from Hall (Boyfriend Material), the first in his Spires Series. Ash Winters, a reasonably successful London novelist with bipolar disorder, meets Darian Taylor, a glitzy, self-tanned Essex fashion model, at a nightclub. After a few initial hiccups, these polar opposites fall into a shockingly successful relationship as Darian’s good cheer coaxes Ash into situations outside of his comfort zone. Though Hall has a sensitive hand with Ash’s mental illness throughout, the happy relationship results in an almost unbelievably huge alteration in Ash’s personality and approach to the world. Hall writes Darian’s dialogue in Essex dialect—suggesting, for example, that the inscription to Ash’s latest novel should read, “To the geeza what I slept wif and then done a runner on in the middle of the night, making ’im feel like a right slapper?” This near-caricature has a distracting effect and distances readers from the narrative, especially as none of the other characters speak with comparable dialectical mannerisms. Still, Hall’s trademark humor and heart shine through. It’s a cheery, hopeful love story proving that those with mental illness can have just as much fun—and sex—as those without. Agent: Courtney Miller-Callahan, Handspun Literary.

    • Library Journal

      Starred review from June 1, 2024

      An early work by Hall makes its audio debut. Ash is a posh former wunderkind whose struggles with self-harm left him hospitalized. A chance hookup at a stag party, working-class Essex boy Darian is loud, brash, and disarmingly sweet. Ash thinks it's a one-off until Darian crashes his next book signing, and Ash can't help but invite him into his life. Ash realizes that Darian is awakening feelings he thought were long dead: trust, hope, and vulnerability. But he's so used to things going wrong that love seems unattainable. Will he sabotage this relationship, or can he keep his world lit with Darian's glitter? The 2013 book by Hall contains their hallmarks, including depictions of mental illness, deepening characterization through sex scenes, and making tired tropes feel new. Some early-writer foibles are present, including flowery similes, but Nicholas Boulton's expert narration molds it into a cohesive whole. Boulton's skillfully rendered Essex accent is tailor-made for readers put off by the transliterated accent in the written work. Additional content, including an expanded conclusion, helps round out the narrative. VERDICT A perfect narrator and a deeply felt romance make this a definitive version of a Hall favorite.--Katherine Sleyko

      Copyright 2024 Library Journal, LLC Used with permission.

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